When one questions themselves........

[PadmeSkywalker]

I sat at work yesterday, skimming through Anakin and Padme sites.... most of the day.

I spent last night probably 4-5 hours on you tube watching videos of Anakin and Padme......

I get on again today and spend 2 hours so far on you tube watching more videos of them and bringing myself literally to tears........

ONE has to ask..... why spend so much time obsessed with these two characters? What is missing in my own life, so to speak that I do this? Why this behavior?

Am I missing something in my real life that I do this? Am I emotionally unstable?

I have nothing to complain about in my real life, seriuosly..... normal everyday stuff........

So WHY this behavior? Is it unhealthy? I'm afraid I know that answer........ are there better things to be doing....... definately.........

Just wanted to post my feelings, I know some of you might see some similarities with me, some of you may not, you have healthy, unobsessed lives....... just would like your thoughts and help so to speak......

I even tried to go "days" without logging on here or AA and it seemed to help I didn't think about Anakin and Padme all the time, their tragic, SAD story.... when I come here or AA, all I do is think of them..... they aren't real...... its JUST a story, so why these feelings? this Emotion?

[Saphira]

No nothing to worry about my friend! You are perfectly normal!

I should mention, I am insanely, obsessed with characters from Harry Potter. Lately I to, have been searching fanfiction for them, watching viedos, chatting on forums, writing me own fanfic to.
Not to mention my oddness of day-dreaming. Which I do..all the time. Sometimes even having fantasies about the characters. Pretending even that I MYSELF am a character in the series. Aye, I have considered and wondered the question, Why?
What is with me? Why do I day-dream about things impossible? Why do I feel that sometimes they are real? It's not, why waste time thinking it? Your right Padmeskywalker, they aren't real...... its JUST a story, so why these feelings? this Emotion?
Can't tell you the number of times I've thought that I should mention.

I think the answer has nothing to do with being emotionally unstable. If it did, then millions of people around the world are emotionally unstable^^ Trust me, people really get into books, to movies. They make sites devoted to them, work endless hours on them, on forums they work hard on. People write endless fanfiction for series of all kinds. I have seen examples of this every single time I go on the net.

That's why your perfectly normal. Your not the only one who's obsessed!

I believe it's because these things bring the imagination to life. They present things, situations, plots, stories, that are beyond our reality. Harry Potter for example, is fantasy. Hogworts isn't real is it? But isn't it an amazing idea? I can imagine myself in Hogworts, learning and going to school, getting into mischeif and all that. And I do day-dream about it. It's fun to. It's FUN to think of something else, something different. It's not real, but we wish it would be. We imagine what the characters have done, and we think of how fun it sounds. We wish it where real. We find ourselves thinking, and thinking about it.

With Anakin and Padme, well it is, for one thing, a beautiful love story. I don't think it has ANYTHING to do with ANYTHING you are missing in your own life. It really brings the imagination out, in their tale. There are things beyond our true reality in it to. It's a tragic story, but a beautiful one. They are madly in love, a love so strong. It's wonderful to think of a love that strong.

There's nothing wrong with you. Your very normal. Your not the only one

People with no obessions are the ones not normal. My mother..she doesn't read much fantasy and doesn't get attached to characters from novels. Now I can't imagine, not day-dreaming about all sorts of things. I can't imagine not day-dreaming about yes, HP stuff like Hogworts or things from SW. I can't imagine not making stories in my mind of books I've read or of movies I've seen. It would be a boring life. Well not really, but it would be boring to not think of things, to have obessions, with even things not real. It's imagination, truely a blissful thing. These characters aren't real, but isn't it wonderful to feel as if they are? Isn't it wonderful to put aside your own problems, and think of a whole new world? A whole new story? Isn't it wonderful to imagine a place beyond our world?

Oh and, those Anakin and Padme sites you mentioned skimming through. Now, there again shows fans who are to obsessed by Anakin and Padme. It shows how people do so much for the characters they love. I've seen tons of fanlisting websites, for characters from books/movies. It goes to show, that characters from books and movies have a VERY huge impact on people all around the world. And these characters aren't real..yet stop and notice how so many people devote so much time and effort for them?

[crystalcat]

No, you're not crazy. I've been obsessed with one thing or another all my life - usually until the next thing comes around to obsess me. But I've noticed a definite pattern:

1. First, it has to be a story that I really enjoy a lot and enjoy the characters.
2. Second, it has to be a story where the characters either make some horrible wrong decision that you just KNOW they could have avoided - OR - it has to be some story that was interrupted in the middle and never finished, like a TV show that got cancelled or an intended sequel was never made. However, I've noticed the real obsessions tend to be with the tragedies. I just want to FIX everything. (I'm probably the only person in the world who ever wrote Dangerous Liaisons fanfiction to get him to realize what was happening before it was too late).

[Annie]

Don't worry about it. Everyone needs a hobby, this is ours. We love it, and it makes us happy, entertains us, and brings us together with friends of the same interest. People do much worse in this world, like causing trouble and trying to find ways to hurt others. I don't see any difference in having this for a pastime than people who play bridge, bingo, do needlepoint, or get together to watch their favorite team play. Besides, I believe that caring so much for such a tragic story shows just what a nice, good hearted person you really are ((hugs))

[PadmeSkywalker]

Thanks everyone! I appreciate your comments..... I just don't understand the emotional ties I have with it..... I mean I literally cry over this..... its not true! I guess it is the idea of them being madly in love, Anakin turning only to save her, then she dies..... they hide his children! UGH!

I work in an ER I see REAL tragedy..... a 26 year old dies after refusing to be admitted, cause it was his son's first birthday and he wanted to be home..... I looked into this man's eyes and understood his need to go home, but I said you've had a seizure, you need to be observed..... he insisted on going home, he was DOA later that night.....

I guess I'm being hard on myself..... I don't obsess over work.... but I do about Anakin and Padme?

[Steller's Jay]

I was obsessed with Babylon 5 after I watched all 122 episodes. What a fantastic show that was! However, I didn't write stories about it.

Then along came the PT and I got obsessed with SW all over again, but even moreso than 20 years ago. After meeting some of these wonderful fans on SW.com and reading their fiction, I started writing my own, just because I couldn't get the story, especially ROTS out of my head.

I love the Skywalkers and still get wistful and a little sad when I think of Anakin making the wrong choices. I don't worry about it; it actually makes me feel kinda good.

[Saphira]

I guess I'm being hard on myself..... I don't obsess over work.... but I do about Anakin and Padme?

Yes you are being to hard on yourself! And same here, I don't obsess over school as much as I do about things that aren't even real. It's such a wonderful tale, it's hard not to.

It just shows how some people can make movies/books so good that you really become attached to the characters.

[duffy]

It is an escape from everyday life. We all need that in this crazy, stressful life we lead. Working in an ER.....wow....I admire you. Look at it this way, it is better to obsess over Anakin and Padme than turn to something else like alcohol.

[samantha]

Actually, I'm a member on at least five forums, each linked to one of my centre of interests, this one being the very last one of the list, but the first I'm looking forward connecting to see what's been going on in the last past hours.

Better have many centre of interests than one, from my point of view. It reflects one's personality and tastes, especially Anakin and Padmé, when I'm thinking well.

I've an Harry Potter related site, on which I express my thoughts, and a story meaning a lot to me between two characters seemly having nothing to do together for others, but I don't care, that's the best part. I've learnt to not care anymore about others' thoughts towards my works, mainly when they were disapproving them, because they weren't meeting their expectations. Otherwise, as a writer and a Webmistress, I'm quite open, and don't tolerate such trolls around.

Kisses,

Sam.

[Annie]

Tricia, I haven't seen you in ages, and this makes me sad. I certainly hope that you're just busy and not questioning yourself or abandoning Star Wars. You're a great writer and a nice person, and we want you back, even if it's just to chat. Please check in when you have time ((hugs))